The Creepy Little Muse keeps dancing by me in my dreams every night making it impossible to sleep sometimes. I swear she haunts me sometimes. I call her chaos, because that is what she makes my mind.
Last night as I was trying to sleep, she crept by my bed brushing the covers just enough to wake me up so that I could see her dash me and head out toward the other room. Damn, sometimes she freaks me out and sometimes she just pisses me off. I don’t sleep much the way it is, but she doesn’t make things any easier.
Yes, I sound absolutely crazy and sometimes feel that way…but if it weren’t for Chaos whispering things in my ears at night then I wouldn’t have so many insane stories that I am trying to write. That is both a positive and a negative because she thinks that I’m a super genius that can type 1000 words per minute and get things on paper fast.
She doesn’t understand that family comes first and I always have to jot things down and come back to them and work when I can. My family has been keeping my very busy again so writing is something that I try to do if I get some spare time. I have been freehand writing a lot and translating it into the computer for the past few days.
I honestly can say that I do feel like I am getting things done. But with a few family setbacks, it is hard to keep up. I am working on getting internet back at the house. Yay! Won’t that be fun? I will be able to keep up with blogs better and keep doing my research for my books that I am working on.
For now the family is all doing fine. My mother is in surgery this morning getting her fistula replaced. She had one last year but it has to be replaced. She is going to have to start going back to dialysis. For those of you who aren’t familiar with my family…well, they like to keep me on my toes. If it isn’t one thing it is another. So thank you to all of my friends who have sent me well wishes and a speedy recovery for mamma.
I want to tell everyone that I am very proud of their accomplishments that I have been reading about on the blogs. Some have works out for partials and full requests. Some have completed their manuscripts and some are editing like the wind. I am PROUD of all of you. You all work really hard and do a really great job.
On a sad note, I won a contest before Christmas…a copy of MATCHED! Well needless to say, I have never received it. *tears streaming* I was really looking forward to reading the book. So mister post office man—Please give me back my book or get it to me for criminy sakes. The only contest I have ever won and the postal service can’t even get me my book. (DEVESTATED)
I look forward to reading up more on your adventures and progress as we all grow as writers – novice, published…doesn’t matter. You are the reason I read books. I commend you. Best Wishes!