Post Apocalyptic Meltdown

The Apocalypse is on hold and Christmas is coming. So far, I think that I have completed all of my Christmas shopping and am working on something that has been gathering dust in the drawer for some time. One of my finished manuscripts UNSETTLED that needs lots of TLC and editing.

I have been working on it for several hours and can't believe that I thought it would pass as a novel. WOW! I have made so many changes that I have been debating on either pulling out my hair or scrapping it altogether. I don't want to but I just don't feel like it is going anywhere. I still have great notes from some of my past beta readers - when I had time to write - and I appreciate how lenient they were with me and the fact that I can't write. *shaking head and laughing*

It doesn't bother me that I don't really feel that my writing is not up to par, what bothers me is that deep down, I do want to write and scribble occasionally here and there but can not commit to it. It deserves the commitment and I am just not giving it the love and support that it needs. I let life consume me and shut out my muse.

I keep opening the door for her to come back in for chats now and again and we have been sharing some really creative ideas. I just need to implement them. Again commitment is an issue. So I am going to try to push through this novel to make it the best that it can be and see where I am next year. I have not decided yet about any publishing options because I have read so many books this year...around 170.

Some of these books are self published and have editing issues. When I give a review, I don't dwell too much on those issues but like to help individuals know if it is something that they would like to read by the content. Sometimes I steam through a book so fast, that I forget what it is about. Does that say that I just don't focus on what I read or that it doesn't hold my attention? No matter. I try not to be negative about anyone's work, because at least they are out there doing what they love while I sit back and admire from afar...to chicken to jump in the water.

I really just wanted to touch base with everyone and tell them to keep typing out those words that have been inspired to hit paper and do what you love with a vengeance so that opportunities do not pass you by. I hope everyone enjoys their holidays and have a great 2013. I will be watching, praying and cheering you on while I muddle through my mental blocks!

Writers - YOU ROCK!!  I love reading your books as you publish them.