Thought of the moment....

No matter how hard you try, you will NEVER control anyone else's attitudes, actions, or outcomes. The only person that you have the ability to directly impact is you, and it is your responsibility to learn how to do just utilize the knowledge, skills, and abilities you have been given to impact the world in the most positive way that you can EVERY chance you get!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Bring me back to life.

I am stuck in a turbulent sea of thoughts that I cannot escape nor find how to process into full thoughts. It has been a six month lull. So far there is no clear way to go. I keep treading water …trying to keep my head above the rising waves before I drown but every day I am becoming more and more unsuccessful.

There are so many things that I want to do but am not dedicating the time to do them. I have diligently become more aware of the state of my health and have been participating in 5K’s, walk-jogs and even a physical fitness boot camp three days a week. Physically I am looking and feeling better and was hoping that this would help with the balance that I feel that I am missing.

I have included yoga to find my inner focus but it is slowly coming to me to want to participate in my writing. I know that I could have potential if I could just focus and put my mind to it, but the ADD side of me keeps getting distracted around every corner and look for a way out by losing myself in reading a book with a great cup of coffee.

There was a time that I would get up every day and look forward to grabbing a pen and paper and writing until I ran out of ink, because I never seem to run out of things to say – only how to put into words eludes me. I want to congratulate all of you that keep following your dreams. I see some of you finding publication and success and others finding the word counts keep coming. I am silently stalking you and dwell on the beauty of your passion for writing. You are writers, colleagues, friends… I know that someday my coast guards will come and fish me out of the ocean and help me row my boat with great intensity until my words have formed meaning.

I have challenged myself to NANOWRIMO. If I don’t try, then I have already failed.
There is a quote on my wall that I keep looking at and willing myself to follow it. It goes likes this:

Watch your thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

What do you want your destiny to be???


The Golden Eagle said...

Welcome back to the blogosphere! :)

I like the quote you posted. Small things really do lead up to larger ones.

I'm participating in NaNoWriMo, too.

Shelly said...

I did Camp NaNo so I won't be doing the November one. Secondhand Shoes will be out soon. And there's so much to do.

I really hope to see you around the blogosphere more.

Hugs and chocolate,

William Kendall said...

It's been awhile since we've seen you.

I've had spells where the writing just wasn't coming for me...

Anonymous said...

Sometimes life takes over.

Best of luck with NaNo!

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